February 2012
80 posts
Four websites I cannot live without
Google, Gmail, Facebook, and Tumblr.
I would add Youtube only my laptop blocked it so I’ve been doing with out for the past 4 months. ahaha :P
Oh man...
Just had a good cry right now. A lot of things have been bottled up and listening to songs, to my support system, to God really helped me sorta let go. I’m not all the okay. But that’s okay. And I’m not saying that I’m anticipating the worst. All I’m saying that total healing is gonna take time. And I’m okay with that.
I’m just okay. Not great, but okay.
“I am tired of trying to hold things together that cannot be held. Trying to...”
– Erin Morgenstern, The Night Circus (via larmoyante)
Today I bought a notebook.
One that I will write in when I feel my lowest and when I feel my highest, and then the in between ones too. Where I will draw and recall my suppressed memories.
Where my scattered thoughts are written down, and my story begins :)
Anxiety. There's no way around it.
Pulling an audition out of thin air. This is gonna...
Lent: Be good to me please.
40 days here we go!
No rice, No soda, and going jogging every Saturday and Sunday morning. Wish me luck :)
Today is the oldest you've ever been and the...
Dear _________,
There are a lot of things I wish I could say to you, a lot of things that I want to say. But, I can’t… not now anyways. So I’m going to write you letters, letters of everything I want to say but never could. I hope than when you eventually get these letters, you can answer all my questions. Because honestly, when I leave for college, I don’t want you to be just another...
For everyone who's going through shit.
I’m praying that you have the strength to push through everything that’s eating you up. I’m anticipating that things will eventually get better and that you find happiness in whatever the future has in store for you. And I’m hoping that you keep calm and carry on, because we only have one life to live and I don’t want anyone live life without even noticing the beauty...
My sanctuary
It’s one of those things that can be so stress free that you become so vulnerable and you let your guard down. But as soon as you do, your problems, your triggers sneak up behind you and invade your sanctuary. So although I feel safe and vulnerable, I can’t ever let my guard down because the moment I do, all hell breaks loose.
How can something so calming and peaceful cause so much...
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And now, with kids shows, we’re afraid to touch on subjects like death, divorce, and homosexuality, lest the parents phone up and throw a bitchfit. Television was educational not in that it taught us how to count by twos or what the word indigenous meant, but in the way it taught us life lessons in a way we were able to...
It's really difficult
To trust God and trust that everything is going to be okay when everything seems to be going wrong. I’m trying to trust, I really am but it’s not as easy at they make it seem.
Living like this...
Living like this, the way I am, sucks butt. I can’t stop myself from these experiences, these tragic pieces of shit. I never realized that the things I went through or am going through would affect me like this.
So what am I going to do about it? Nothing really. Just be thankful that I have amazing people to be there when I need them most.
I HATE BIOLOGY.
The class, the favoritism, the knowledge, everything. end of story.
If I could have anything.
It would be to stay in choir forever, stay close with Ms. Srisamai, stay close with all my good friends, double major in business and music, be a choir director, please me parents, and be successful.
But most of all, I would like to have genuine happiness in life. That really is my goal. :)
Discussing a "Shit List" :P
with Ben, Kaylyn, and Jenny.
Don’t I have the greatest friends ever?! haha.
When I'm legal.
I want to get a tattoo, and not of something unimportant like a heart or a rose. I want to get something, maybe a quote or symbol that represents who I am and who I will always be. I want it to be a reminder that I will be okay as long as I have the inspiration and motivation to keep on moving. Yeah.
I like that… Inspiration. I’ve been using that word a lot lately. :)